pick me up now, i need u so bad

had attachment at acjc swimming complex. was with all the swimming teachers while they are teaching the little kids. the kids are realli cute...ranging from age 4-8..den they have all kinds of different personalities. some love water and are realli confident, others are realli afraid of the water and u have to realli coax them to the water. there are toys for them to play to help them gain their confidence. its reali fun and all..and the 4 hours just flew by..tmr's going down again after training. hope to see some cute kids again.

-blah.

do i stand a chance? do i have hope? is it possible? can i win? argh. demoralised.

-Rants.

hmmm..had combined land training with all the freshies. did abit of gym..den led them for some sets of crunches and leg lifts and flutter-kicks and bridge.quite fun but still not enough..i need to train harder. i have seen the difference between us and other schools. i wanna push myself but my body just can't go on. i say i wanna train harder but i'm not doing it. dunno whats wrong with me. so utterly demoralised. i feel i'm such a loser. i need some motivation. got to push.

full-stop.

sunday. went for polo pool slot in the morning. was quite an effective training. my keeping seems to have gotten back to its former feel. played match too. finally our team seems to have a momentum going on. hope that we can do it for SRRR.

after polo, went to kallang for sprint training. omg lar. coach make us row expedition boats. made me even MORE tired. den had to practice strokes do all kinds of wierd stuff. heh heh. i rolled with the slalom..damm zai. x) used polo techniques..ahahah. but still..very tired. came up...did 100 pushups...50 pullups..wah super chui. may i shldn't train twice in a day. realli saps u.

saturday. went back to secondary school after training. somehow it jus doesn't feel the same anymore. guess that the change of location for the school just makes the feeling gone. anyway..went to eski bar with my sec school mates. quite fun. especially the sub-zero room cold room or whatever. its REALLY cold. here are some pics. enjoyed myself quite alot. =D

sorethroat and ulcers SUCK. ulcers damm painful please. and i tink the sorethroat's giving me bad breath. RAWR.

on a sidenote..sorry seniors for my outburst on u all. but u all are seniors should be more mature and all. this batch of juniors will be looking up to us as guides and everything. i dun wish for them to be following bad examples. hope u all take into heart what i have said during the debrief seriously and look into ur behaviour in the future. i myself think that i din behave well enough and i apologize for that but i shall do better during the next training. sorry once again NACC seniors.

had combined land training. all the freshies were there with us. haha. so happy to see NACC with so many members once again although i guess it will only be temporary.. =\ anyway..training was alright though i feel seniors could have set a better example including me. i hope more seniors would come down for training too. juniors on the other hand..already found some black sheep who are pissing me off. hope they will mature more. well..i hope that the games can help to bond everyone as what i felt as a mistake last year was not enough bonding. this had cost us many year 1s last year. hope that this year our juniors will stay on. depressed la..with all the different thinking i have from the others. hope i din offend u all with my comments but its somewhat true too. u all are right too but we have to compromise sometime. next time training can be more xiong too..

found out that someone thinks i have great body and cmi face..which is like totally wrong!? everyone's talking about my hair. argh.

Had friendly with redtide today. had a mixture of good news and bad news. bad news is..we din play very well at all due to lack of poolslots.Redtide is a damm fast team and we got thrashed at certain matches and seriously we need to buck up. good news is not really good news but good news to me. Managed to chase up to the opposing team's players when we got fast break-ed. Was happy as it meant that i have improved in certain parts like turning boat early to turn back and possibly in speed too.

Now i'm just damm tired from all the matches played. Need to build up endurance..looking forward to SRRR. did i mention tat i scored a goal too? =D

went to acjc;aps swim school for an interview to be a swim teacher. HAHA. yea. me. swim teacher. anyway interview went quite smoothly. the interviewer was very friendly..said i was handsome. HAHA. dunno true anot la ar. anyway..hope i get the job cos it seems to be quite a fun experience and i can get to try out new stuff.

busy planning AC stuff..yup busy planning and bloggin at the same time. ha. bored of seeing the same stuff so decided to blog..anyway shall get back to planning already. update again..

this is a really funny and stupid song introduced from dennis. can't control bursting out laughing when i heard it. enjoy! =D

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?
I got to be wholesome
I could be loathsome
Guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?
I tried to be like Grace Kelly ( mmmm )
But all her looks were too sad (ahhh ahhh)
So I tried a little Freddie (MMMM)
I've gone identity mad!
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean G
otta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
[Getting angry doesn't solve anything.]
How can I help ya
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby Hello my baby
Putting my life on my brink
Why don't you like me Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?
I tried to be like Grace Kelly (mmmm)
But all her looks were too sad (ahhh ahhh)
So I tried a little Freddie (MMMM)I've gone identity mad!
I could be brown I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful I could be purple I could be anything you like
Gotta be green Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself
Hey!But you only want what everybody else says you should want you want
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green Gotta be mean Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me? Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
I could be brown I could be blue I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green Gotta be mean Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me? Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
Oooh, oooh!
Kaching

quite a number of stuff happened today. had committee meeting just now. had a change of polo captain. wonder how isit gonna be like in the future.

discovered that we no longer have thursday poolslot when school reopens. was so angry and disappointed. can't believe that the school authorities would resort to this. can't see why they dun wan to give us poolslots when we are training and playing in NGEE ANN'S name. its quite unfair. yes..we do see some slackers now and then and also some lousy display of attitude. however the school ppl had not given us enough chances to train..pool closes at 9..so we have to pack up by 830? no way. the final 15 mins to 1/2 an hour of slot is still there for us...every training, every minute is so precious. if u tink we have a lousy attitude..tink about how u are treating us too. SP has so much more trainings then us if the sch authorities dun tink about the team..tink about those who are laggin behind. if u expect our team to produce results, den u should give us slots to train with. how is a team going to excel when it doesn't even have enough training. giving us an extra hour on a sunday slot is not going to make any difference. sunday is not exactly a day that u would come down early in the morning and play polo for like 5 hours. use ur common sense and think. u say we dun deserve it..i say we deserve every single minute of poolslot.to me..u're just abusing ur authority, ol' mr JACOB.

today went to row for the 3rd day in a row since sunday's cher training. fatigue seems to have caught up to me. sunday cher's training..monday sprinted with alumni and went running in the evening..today..sprinted 6 times. Hmmm...CHUI can..

our boat's best timing was 2.30..shall try to push till 2.20. Targeting NCC. and somemore funny things happened today. After finishing everything and on the way back at merdeka bridge..we saw some wakeboarding ladies.. XD...so idiotically..we rowed towards them..when a speedboat had just went past us infront. Hence..the waves from the speedboat are like HUGE. The waves just keep coming into our boat..consecutively 5 times...by the 4th time...our boat is so submerged tat we are 'sitting' on water. No choice...had to capsize..with all the rubbish and stuff floating around us la. YUCK. so...today.. the Waves 1 Bracers 0. >.<

being a activity coordinator sure isn't easy..plan tis plan tat. still have to do quite some stuff..BUT, i shall cope with it. =D

rowed k2 today with brian..felt the glide at certain times..felt the speed while doing sprinting. shall train harder for NCC. need balance and endurance..

went down to kallang to row on thurs. trained mostly on balancing. found out our k2 suddenly not so zai..so we went to take the raptors. damm happy..i could row better in a raptor and i could even sprint in it. wahaha. after tat...tried to got onto the raptor without using a paddle..surprisingly i could do it. HAHA. i feel damm happy la..great sense of achievement there.

i'm gonna master the raptor and also perfect my k2! x)

Just addicted to this song...-

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but
I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
oh,oh,oh,oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh