pick me up now, i need u so bad

these days just dun feel so good. things are not going the way i want it to be but what i am to grumble about. its the way of life. feeling so crappy and all..common tests are next week but i lack the motivation to study..lack the motivation to do anything. dunno whats coming over me..

had presentation just now...it went alright...now i'm at home..bored to death..doing up the star 1 list.so many ppl still haven give me their details la..still have to go bug them and post their names on the blog and PAISEH them den they happy.

getting up each day is so hard..feeling so tired..tired of so many things..how i wish i can just row and row and forget everything around. argh...everything's so complicated and troubling..

sunday training was good. rowed and rowed, burst and burst. 5 6-10s, 5 6-20s, 4 6-30s. den went off to do sprint 20 strokes and row 30 strokes for a triangle. guessed our boat was one of the few that really pushed. we burst and burst and sprinted. it was realli hot..the sun was SUPER hot. unbelievably burnt once again..but..can get more tanned. ahahah. now my body feels realli warm, like its generating heat or something.

went for lunch at suntec and had to bring our paddles back. so troublesome la taking the bus..realli mafan but i tink got the 'Seh', with all the eyes looking at us. hahaha.

PA race's next week..hope our school achieve something for the competition. i will give it my all...let me have no regrets!

tuesday

it was an alrite day..went out with a cavewoman to repair her phone. went amk hub, went plaza singapura, went to toa payoh. ate at crystal jade and had sesame paste at toa payoh. got abused throughout the day..i tink i might die from internal injuries someday. seems like cavewomen are realli violent. haha.

wednesday

had land training..wasn't xiong at all..just tat something's wrong with my legs..can't sprint at all..totally can't sprint. thigh, hamstring and my joint hurt like madd. campus circuit was okay...games was not realli games with the small playing area and so many ppl..well. nothing's much happening..see what happens..

today's training is like WOW! 3 hours under the crazy sun on my k2 with my partner. row and row and row..with REALLI little water cos we din have enough bottles. feeling super parched and tired when coach asked us to sprint 10 300m sprints. was like...WOW. sprinted like never b4..was SUPER tired and drained with no water at all..but..it was good training nevertheless.

boat still not fast...must push push push!

went back to sprint training since about a month ago. used raptor today. surprisingly..i could still balance in it..hahaha. zai is zai..cannot blame. =x kidding only. damm i capped once la. stupidly tried to backpaddle fast and ended up paddle eat the water. grrrr. shan't cap next time. looking forward to more trainings and competitions.

went for pool attachment again. kids are fun. time passed fast. not tiring at all. hmm nothing much to say...

hmmm..someone repair the phone quick! =)

umm. maybe yesterday's training WAS xiong. Woke up with aches all over my lower body..must be the crazy circuits that we did. haha. been feeling lousy tis few days...even lousier when i'm sick. AGAIN. grrr. having flu and cough now...tons of flam in my throat..er xin feeling please. bahh...i'm so tired..when can i get to rest...this is seriously a lousy, boring, stressful, lonely and empty week.

shan't talk anymore. haha.

past few days have been miserable..SERIOUSLY. been so stressed with those blardy powerpoint presentations. well, glad to have this heavy load off my mind since they are over. Although there are factors contributing to my extremely stressful state the past few days. hmm..had land training..wasn't too xiong..except for the circuit part...but still felt i din train enough. Time to set some time aside and go self-gym. PA race is coming in around 2 weeks...not going to let my bro brian down! =D

back to listening to chinese songs after quite sometime...some of the songs i heard realli draws me in and made me emo. haha. blah.

these few days just felt so wierd and empty..hmm...

listened to a couple of songs of which some of their lyrics realli described my feelings quite well..

Yellowcard - Empty Apartment

When you get lonely and no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down

Rihanna - Umbrella

When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
That I'll always be your friend
Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella

had fyp presentation on monday. utterly screwed up. was shooted at by the lecturers like nobody's business. had to represent the project on wednesday. realised the project is so bloody hard. grrr.

had WISP presentation on tuesday. it went well enough. everything went smoothly for us. the teacher was quite happy with our presentation which is kind of a consolation for me after that crappy presentation on monday.

been feeling lousy nowadays..

the weekend just came and went. had freshie orientation camp in school. played SRRR on sat and sun. won 1, drew 1, lost 1..din get thru to the semis. Disappointed with my performance but i'm determined to train harder. Found out the weakness of our team..and hope to change it..anyway..we got 7th in the overall rankings. fight harder team!

having to do presentations is such a chore. gotta do powerpoint slides..discuss with group members. the worst is when my group members are selfish and only care about themselves. blah.

wondering how is she..din manage to go down to show my support due to srrr. hope she did fine. somewhat worried. blah. rants.

Oh ya! i lost my ivp jacket lar. bloody crap. the jacket that i worked so hard for...and its the right size somemore..GRR. hope the bloody guy/girl who found it and kept it for him/herself rot ar! hands grow rashes..get hfmd. =x grr..so angry la..jacket oso wan kope. angry leh!! GRRRRRRR.

and someone seems to have no handphone for the time being..HMM..

got back to training at pool slot today..was alright...not everything deproved like ALOT..but still..it sucks to deprove..sprinting was still okay...although abit slower..catching was better..and KEEPING is like..hmm...lets just leave it to the others to say. and stupid hong gay hit my finger with his paddle while doing pushing zone la. wah damm pain lor. grrrr. bleeding in the nail somemore..swollen somemore. >< saturday's coming soon..looking forward to the matches that are coming..

--its realli good to hear ur voice, saying my name cos it sounds so sweet..coming from a lips of an angel--
Hinder- Lips of An Angel

went back to school today after resting at home for the past few days. first thing my teacher asked was.."Wei Zheng! Are u okay!? U sure u okay??" I was like..stunned there on the spot. blah. I do look okay right..

Our team was dealt another blow when zh msged me that he thinks he's down with HFMD. i was just shocked la. can't be i transmit to him the illness cos if so...all the other guys would have been sick already. anyway..he was placed in the isolation ward in the hospital. hope he's gonna be alrite. and lets hope that i can recover fast enough for tmr's training! its gonna be a hard fight on sat and sun! SRRR here i come!

went to the doctor and was diagnosed with HFMD. given one week's mc. what the hell la. means that i can't play srrr. felt realli down. trained so hard but can't play in the end. realli unlucky..

seen the juniors play..guess they have to realli train hard.

watched my team play..was utterly disappointed by the performance although we won. everyone's not playing properly at all. my tears were shed after looking at the way the game was played and it got me thinking. everytime we resolved to play better, everytime the same problem comes along. this can't go on forever. we are year 3s already. why is this still happening? do u guys seriously want a medal? i say complacency killed us all.

guys..please play better for the next matches. show the aggression, the sense of urgency, the will to win, make every shot count. show everyone that ngee ann canoe polo is a team to be reckoned with. prove ur worth. take back what we lost at nat champs. guys...FIGHT HARD.

wah i realli angry leh. y am i so absent-minded!? RAWR! angry! i hate doing formal reports and why isit so troublesome!? doing it somemore as pairwork but it still seems so hard. BLAH.

blah. had to stay at home during labour day just to do the stupid IS assignments. HELLO! its a public holiday!? RAWR. anyway had to stay at home the whole morning. now i'm still thinking whether to go out anot..mum's cooking dinner at home..hmmm.

tmr having the swimming theory test..hope i can pass but still..i haven't studied anything yet. HAHA.