pick me up now, i need u so bad

had combined land training as usual. was games day. so played bball after the warm-ups and the campus run. played till calves cramped. zz.
have the feeling there are several hypocrites around. had a conversation with some people and they had some realli sarcastic comments while talking to me. played along with them..acted like it wasn't affecting me. but in my mind was freaking unhappy. i dunno wat are the remarks and 'jokes' are for..but they ain't funny. i may seem acceptable to it but its not. if u all got anything to say just tell me..no need to resort to this. its just so hurting to hear this kind of stuff. just becos i left doesn't mean u had to do tis. freak.

this past few days was like a dream. i thought i stood a chance. apparently i was tinking too much. should just wake up from this dream and get back to reality. wondering why life has so much crap for me to go through..

Just wanna scream my lungs out.