pick me up now, i need u so bad

went for wed training and thurs pool-slot. both trainings ain't good.
wednesday. went to run to rifle range..was able to keep up with the pace and was quite happy to achieve that. but still got disappointed at the end. towards ending of the run..different muscles on my legs started to cramp and i had to stop frequently to stretch den continue to run. but when the mind continues to push..the body doesn't, it gives up. f**k. my body freaking gave up on me. was real pek cek la. was able to run among the front pple but freaking cramp until i couldn't run at all. argh..damm bu gan xin. next time will run even more faster.

pool-slot. did some basic drills. still quite alrite until the shooting drill. freaking can't keep balls at the top bar. disappointed with myself. wondering wat the hell is wrong with me. i got to pull myself together. i'm gonna bloody improve man. find the Fire within me..